That's how I feel today. Down in the dumps, cranky, too much on my mind. Just blah. I hate days like today. I have so many things I want or need to accomplish, and today is one of those days that I have absolutely NO motivation to do any of them.
In other news. Jon is working nights now. Just for a couple weeks, in order to get the deck of the boat ready for the long sailing trip they are going on in October and November. So now he leaves for work around 3:00pm and gets home sometime after midnight. It's nice having him home during the day, and the girls just love having him home!! Since he's not here for dinner though, I think tonight is pizza night! Definitely not cooking tonight! =)
Sunday, September 27, 2009
So I'm just sitting here, pondering things. And lately I have found myself so conflicted. Why do so many things in life have to be so complicated? Why can't everything just make sense with a glance? I'm not really sure where I'm going with this, I just needed to vent. I am conflicted with myself right now. I have one situation where I am forced to make a choice. Walk away, or play on someone else's terms. I have never before in my life allowed someone else to dictate to me how a friendship will be, especially when that person is not involved directly in said relationship. Until now I have chosen to avoid the choice all together, and recently I've come to realize that doing that has only made me more angry. And I know all too well, that when you bottle up emotions like that, eventually, they will explode. So I'm forced to choose. But how can I choose? There are so many details. I'm sure if I just closed my eyes and cut away all the crap, and all the drama, and saw the situation for what it really is, then it wouldn't be that hard of a choice. My friendship with someone depends solely on how badly this person wants it. And apparently, it's not too important. Hopefully I will be able to elaborate on this someday soon. But right now, I have a lot of thinking to do. I just hate that things have to be so dang complicated.
Friday, September 25, 2009
So I have been putting off starting a blog for a really long time now. And being a military family, it's probably the best way for our friends and family to keep up with us. Those that don't use facebook, anyway!!! I might actually have a little fun too! You never know! So, I have spent the entire morning (when I probably should have been doing something productive in my house!!!), learning the ropes of how to keep this blog going! Now, we'll just see how well I can keep up with writing it!!! Love to all!